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NEVER EVER ASSUME

In Self Help on October 14, 2012 at 11:51 pm

” Assume nothing, question everything ” – James Patterson

One key lesson, I have learned from life is to never assume anything. I have to also admit that I personally love making assumptions. I get a thrill from assuming things, as long as my assumptions don’t jeapardise my flow of life (ie. friendship development or well being). A lot of people make assumptions based on appearance and that is clearly shallow, since you can’t judge a book by it’s cover and you cannot be absolutely certain about anything without actual experience.

For me, a lot of the things I like, don’t relate to my appearance. My clothing style is smart and really casual. Behind my black skin, and dress code, is not a book worm or library worm, but a guy who loves hip hop, loves to write, loves the concept of travelling and a plane enthusiast. Also I really like being social with people, but if you saw me behind a white screen, you couldn’t predict those things about me. You would naturally have a list of ideas. I went out today, with my friends to Heathrow Airport to take pictures of planes, and we all dressed as if we were going to skate. We got a few weird looks since we didn’t have suitcases or big luggage bags, but once we all took out our camera phones, and SLR cameras, people were just thinking ‘plane spotters?’ The thing about that particular experience, is that we look like typical teenagers that would go out and skate (we do), go cinema, and play computer games. Actually, our interests and hobbies all centralised around planes and travelling, while we all have particular interests. One of my friends likes photography, another likes martial arts, another likes aviation, and I love to write.

When you assume, you are either trying to solve something quickly, move quickly from point A to point B or simply don’t feel secure with exploration. When I don’t assume, the journey of life becomes more interesting, because I notice things I would have never noticed, if I made a quick judgement. Also when you spend time getting to know people, not for their looks, but their character, you have more of a chance of meeting people that would be great friends of yours, best friends, potential boyfriends/girlfriends and just amazing people who could be life changing.

The question is why would you want to make an assumption on someone who you don’t know? Why don’t you want to forget about appearance, even though appearance is a natural occurrence in attraction? Maybe assume less, and explore more is the way forward.

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON

In Self Help on September 12, 2012 at 8:27 pm

Everything in my life, has happened for a reason. Everything that has happened in your life, has happened for a reason.

I wonder how many people actually believe this amazing accusation. I definitely do. I notice that everyting in the world interconnects in some way that makes the world flow in the most extraordinary, most weird and most beautiful way. Of course many things happen in life that we regret, but if we changed the plan of life and could go back in time, what we experience now or later on in life could dramatically change.

Imagine, the time when you met your best friend, or caught the bus to work, or met your boyfriend or girlfriend for the very first time. Imagine what life would like if you shifted the pattern and path of your life for a split second. I bet you wouldn’t have done or achieved the thing that you have achieved now. That clearly shows that the world is so powerful in its connectiveness.

I went to college yesterday and I had no intention of meeting anyone. I got to college early, because I took an early bus which I just caught and met this person, who is now my friend. I caught the bus with a friend who goes to my church. I suspect that if I didn’t catch that bus, with my friend from church, I wouldn’t have laughed on the bus, or met my new friend at college who I get along with pretty well. The world is so strange in its design, it always seems to amaze me.

I live to be the best everyday. I live to go with the flow. I try to never regret or wish for another outcome. I just accept that this path of life, or this present experience is just powerful beyond measure. Life is beautiful, just the way it is. Why wish to go back and repair what is so fascinating?

PROLONG A FRIENDSHIP BEFORE ANY RELATIONSHIP

In Relationships, Self Help on August 11, 2012 at 11:57 pm

Prolong a friendship for as long as possible. Plant the seeds before the tree is ready to grow and shoot.

Why do I say prolong a friendship? I say prolong a friendship for as long as possible because it allows the foundations to be planted deep in the soil. The soil is only rich if the foundations of a relationship is catered for and examined for a long time. What does that mean in plain English? What I am saying is before you jump into a relationship, hoping for the best without preparing for the worse, you need to make sure you understand the person you are going out with. I am not saying understand them perfectly, but fully make sure you and your future partner have similar interests. I have said before that values and beliefs are very important, but if the girl doesn’t like the same food as you or the same kind of movies, you will have problems. You and your partner need to enjoy each others company to the very last second. You need to like the same things as your partner so there is no quarrels or disagreements. Of course sometimes you might need to compramise but if your partner only likes Jazz, and you hate it, there will be problems, regardless of how strong the values you have with one another.

You may have have the same values as your partner, but if the approach isn’t the same or similar then there will be a few problems. You both may believe in success, but what success means for one individual, may not be the same for another. This is very deep stuff because connectivity and similarity in how you and your partner live your lives needs to combine together like half a heart with the other half of a heart. The heart doesn’t work effectively if one heart is purple, and the other is red. It doesn’t matter if they are the same size and diameter.

I have had amazing and less amazing friendships. What I have realised is that friendships last longer than relationships in a very generalised sense. The reason relationships work so well is because two parties realised that before they took the leap of faith, they made sure they wore their helmet and had the right size suit to execute a fantastic dive and smooth landing. If you don’t build a friendship based on foundations and similar interests, you will have a crash landing and it won’t be nice. Take as long as possible to prepare yourself for the jump or leap. It is seriously worth it. Yes, women will get bored. And yes, men will get bored if the person is taking so long, but if you wait long enough, someone who is right for you will wait with you and for you. They will stand by you when you fall, and fly with you when you rise.

Sometimes, you and another person may jump into a relationship not knowing much about the other person, only hoping for the best. What I can say from experience is don’t let all the glamour of being in a relationship get into your head. It is hard work, it if fun, but if you don’t prepare yourself or are ready, you will flop. Don’t only look at the positives, but examine the negatives and see whether you can cope with the person.

Ask yourself this harshly: DO THE POSITIVES OF THIS RELATIONSHIP OUTWEIGH THE NEGATIVES GREATLY?

You should never lower your standards to fit another person. You should never say another woman or man is a standard. Only standard yourself. You should never continue a relationship for the sake of it. You should never try to change a person, only accept. If you cannot accept the person, don’t be in that relationship.

It is majorly important that you ask simple questions towards your partner or friend. Questions like ‘Tell me about your morning.’ Simple questions are always the best questions because the way a man or woman answers it, can either attract you to them or make you less interested in them. An individual has the ability to approach their story of their morning, but the way this particular woman or man described it, attracted you to them. May seem trash talk, but believe me, it makes a hell of a difference.

Simplicity is key in any relationship. Being deep is important but if you are simple, there is no need to be deep because everything complex, was once simple.

I never used the word love in this post because love comes when your friendship is exactly what you want it to be. You will know when it hits you. I do not need to explain.

MY STRANGE DOWNFALL

In Self Help on June 29, 2012 at 5:39 pm

I don’t try to come across as arrogant. I don’t even try to come across as the best person in the world. I just have this unbelievable amount of confidence that keeps me positive every single day. The problem I have in life right now is that I am exploring the world, trying to be the best person I can be and learn everything about myself and others, that I forget how to just chill. I am not talking about chilling in the sense that I am lazy. I can easily be lazy and just allow the world to go by. I already do that, while trying to perfect my life. I  don’t relax in the sense that I am not analysing. I analyse everything, and it works out perfectly fine. I just never switch off. That is my shortfall!

I always have solutions. I always have answers. Even in silence, I am still analysing, but people don’t notice. I don’t have to speak but I am constantly working. I can allow life to flow but in that flow, I am still mentally having a structure that puts me at work. It is like when you are relaxing but you know you are, so you are working. I may not be making sense, but my perfectionist, positive approach in life, brings me down. Just like they say too much of anything isn’t good for you. When I don’t stress, never get angry, and find quick solutions to problems, yes I am flowing but I am not flowing in the sense that I have no idea what is coming next.

Sometimes I wish that instead of not knowing what is coming and being prepared, why don’t I not plan my back up plan and just allow things to fall where they are supposed to. Not try to solve every little thing in the world. Not try to be the perfectionist I am. Simply, just put my mind at rest.

In my relationship, I have this problem where I know what my girlfriend thinks before she thinks it. I don’t tell her of course. So when she finds something shocking or weird, I find it normal as if I knew already. It is like knowing the future without knowing the future. I have my defences ready, and solutions so I am not vulnerable. I constantly tell people, it’s good to feel vulnerable because you are more safe, that tightened up and constraint from movement. My vulnerability causes me to feel pain, but not for so long. I am constantly repairing myself and act as if nothing happened.

CONFUSED LIFE. I am only 17 as well.

 

WHY I DON’T GET ANGRY?

In Self Help on June 23, 2012 at 3:33 am

Why Don’t I Get Angry?

The law of attraction allows me to be positive in the most depressing and negative times. I may experience something that is really bad or supposedly negative, but because of the law of attraction, I am constantly the happiest man alive.

The law of attraction says that if you attract positivity, you get positive outcomes. If you attract negativity, you get negative outcomes. This works in all aspects of my life. If I am positive towards this post and think of this post as something life changing. It is more than likely to be life changing and motivating because of my positive attraction towards it.

I rarely ever get angry in my life, because when I have an experience, I only allow despair to be present for a couple minutes. If I am in despair, because of something very deep, I look at the situation, have sorrow and despair present in my soul, but my positivity keeps me moving and helps me find positive solutions that will slowly solve the puzzle that has been shuffled, separated and randomised.

This links to the fact that I am never really that fazed or disgusted by people, experiences or things in life. Some people call me mad and say ‘Derrick, do you ever feel like lashing out?’ I always tell them ‘Yes, always!’ The fact that we have many emotions, we are allowed to express negativity but if that dominates our lives, then we will be negative human beings that attract negative outcomes.

In addition, this links to everything we do in life. From doing an exam paper, to writing a book, to going to the gym and eating the right foods. If we are not willing to feed our soul with positivity, how do we attract positivity in our daily lives. Our success, is paved by the route we take to success, not the time taken to get there. If we worry about the time rather than the route and journey, we will get no where. If we look too deeply at the negatives in our dreams and hopes, we will never reach there or get the best result out of our chosen hopes and dreams.

So why don’t I get angry often? I just allow positivty to dominate my life. I never allow anyone to tell me negative things that diminish my chances of success. I keep an open mind so I can be critiqued and critical in my thinking. I use critique positively and I never think of myself as more important than anyone else. I am just one, like every other human being in the world. I just keep pushing for sucess and happiness, since despair and defeat are not in my vocabulary anymore.

We will feel sad and hurtful, sometimes pain, but that is just life. We are supposed to feel that when we experience challenges. Just fight it, and be the person on top. Start you day with something positive and finish it with something positive.

Perfection never teaches you. Despair and negative outcomes do, since they are not what you want. You are willing to learn from what you don’t want, since you want something greater. Something that fulfils your happiness, fills you with joy and purpose in life.

The Risk

In Self Help on June 16, 2012 at 5:28 pm

In my life, I have moments when I think to myself, ‘Do I actually take risks?’ I go to college and live a good life, in a stable home with my mum, but then I think about the times when I have taken ‘the’ risk. The risk to do something extraordinary or have the guts to take a leap of faith to challenge myself to do something I haven’t done before.

Considering all I do in my life is college, write and spend time with family, I am seriously questioning my ability to believe in myself and take a risk that doesn’t fit into my daily routine. Constantly as human beings we are battling our own thoughts and beliefs to seek what is right for us, and when the time comes for us to do something that can change ourselves completely. If we constantly do the same things everyday, surely we will get bored. If we aim to achieve something but only get to a certain point, then a wall surrounds us, where do we go? How do we keep moving to the unknown and new places that help us make sense of our identity.

I go to college 5 days a week, and have lessons at awkward times. When a time comes when I am free from lessons, I could either do something leisure related or study. I most of the time have to study. But if I am not studying, I am doing very repetitive things that don’t really move me forward to experience new things. I would be tweeting, writing, watching films or spending hours on Skype talking to my girlfriend. It becomes an unstructured routine in my life.

The challenge we have as human beings is finding new things to do, and having the confidence to try something that doesn’t fit into our ‘most comfortable’ routine. It is like a new form of laziness that isn’t the same as the typical lazy human being that doesn’t do anything in his or her life. It is the lazy, where we feel so comfortable that anything we do has to be something already done. I am a human being that loves to experience new things. I would go out and watch a film with friends or take a train journey to my girlfriend’s house which is in a place called no where (not literally) and do things that are planned (I love planning). When I have plans to do things that aren’t part of my routine in life, I feel good. I just can’t get myself to do things that aren’t planned, unexpected or extraordinarily risky. The risk is the feeling that I don’t know what will come, so I cannot prepare for failure.

The problem is that when we plan so much and never take the risk, the excitement in any experience weakens, as well as the satisfaction in the result. We love good results. We are humans, so we love the peak in human performance. It be an amazing musical piece an artist makes or the ability to run a couple kilometres and beat your record time. When we feel satisfied with what we have done before, we always ask ourselves about the possible result of a different outcome if we took the risk to not know what will come. Those that are scared of risks, feel good, satisfied (sometimes a lie) and unsatisfied (never admit, but complain) with where they are. Those that take risks, always love the thrill of learning or experiencing something that can either move them forward or move them back, because they can never stay static.

If we all learned how to move away from our typical routine of 9-5 working days and more into the unexpected living, we would learn something completely different about ourselves. If we planned less and hoped for the best, while preparing for the worse, we can only learn and grow. We may often feel disappointment and despair when we don’t get the result or the leap of faith we took was a leap to far.

Dr Cornel West, my favourite Philosopher once said….

He who has never despaired, has never lived.  But you cannot let despair have the last word.

What that has taught me in my confusing teenage life is that we will feel beat down and heartbroken when we don’t get the desired results, but that means that we should always get back up. It doesn’t matter about our circumstances or fear. Our risk taken, if we take it, can only teach us, but never break us, only if we allow it to.

We face challenges but we should just keep moving forward because life is about living. Our lives are too short for being petrified. If we don’t move forward, how can we ever assure ourselves that we have actually lived? Take the risk. Enjoy the risk, but most of all learn from it.

The Unpredictable Life

In Uncategorized on April 22, 2012 at 10:30 pm

NB. The people are made up

You know how people say life is unpredictable.

You make plans to do things and prepare the best you can, but it seems like nature doesn’t want to work with you, or see you through it. Nature comes along with its magic wand, lightsaber, or boxing gloves, and knocks you out, or simply releases you of energy, or control of your situation.

On many occasions, I wonder if life is unpredictable. I wonder if my life should be lived a certain way. I wonder if every little thing I do, will have a big effect on the outcome of my life. If I miss a bus, and catch the next one, will my whole life be changed forever? Or will the people I interact with or the simple things I change have a big effect on the outcome of my life or their life. I always question this ‘lifestyle’ or ‘human performance’ or this ‘living synchronicity’ that seems to exist among me and all the other humans that exist on this planet, called Earth. Who controls the outcome in our life? Is it us, or do other humans interfere with what is supposed to happen in our life. Again, it is a question to ask if life is supposed to be planned or forever unpredictable.

The Business Man:

Tom has starting capital of £1 million (savings) and has a unique business idea that is likely to be successful. He could be consulted by key business magnets in the industry about the viability of his business. He could make an exceptional business plan, and do his business risk assessments, known as a SWOT analysis, and could open up a fashion store in two years’ time. So Tom successfully started his business and the business made £2 million in revenue. It is forever growing.

The Traveller:

Lindsey is going from London, to New York. She has a flight at 08:00pm in the morning at London Heathrow, Terminal 5. She packs her bags two days before. Goes shopping the next day and buys all the essential goods needed for her trip. She gets to the airport, forgets her passport at home, and her flight leaves in one hour and a half. She has her phone but it is on red battery life, because she forgot to charge it overnight. Lindsey attempts to call home. Sadly, she can’t get in touch with anyone at home, after using her phone which dies and the customer service desk telephone. Lindsey has to go home, and she cannot replace her flight unless she pays a cancellation and reschedule fee of £200, which she doesn’t have because the purpose of her trip is to visit family. She only has $50 for a four day trip.

The Writer:

Ray, a really talented writer, completes a thriller novel, which has taken him six months of his life. He has suffered criticism from lots of people, who believe he won’t make it as a writer, and his work isn’t worthy, but Ray keeps going on and that has led him to the point where he is able to get his novel published by the Harper Collins. On the day of sending his manuscript, his laptop crashes and all of his valuable data is lost. His flash drive is connected to the laptop and his back up file containing his manuscript is deleted. He didn’t save it anywhere else except his flash drive and laptop. This was his living purpose since January.

The questions that make me wonder. Was the entrepreneur supposed to be successful? He planned really well. He forecasted his business plans and prepared effectively for the worse to come. He still had his home as an asset (worth £3 million), but didn’t have a job, because he quit his job to give his business venture, his full attention. If he failed, he wouldn’t be doing anything, and he would be valued at £3 million rather than £4 million, after spending £1 million on developing on his business idea. He was successful, and the worse didn’t occur. Lindsey didn’t make her flight, didn’t get to go on holiday, and lost all the money she has put into her trip (£400), leaving her with $50, which she hoped to spend in New York City. She simply went home with the bits of change she had. Was her life supposed to have ended up like that or was it all her fault and bad planning? Did an external force have control over her operations? Ray didn’t retrieve his files. He had to start from scratch again, and all his hard work went to waste. Was it really his time to publish, or was he supposed to be doing something else in his life. Or was he being protected from a bad outcome or an unfortunate event?

The feeling of life being predictable and unpredictable makes us question our reality and process of living. Do we live for a greater force or are we supposed to live and not plan? We can plan so much, but it takes something so little to destroy our own created forces that give us power and control. The essence of living is far from being known to man or woman, but if we did know, would we plan so much, or just live in the very second and not care about sudden change?

The ability to plan and change gives us the power to gain wealth (financial and non-financial) and live with security, but the security we have is nothing if a greater force controls every action man or woman does.

Lyrical Mad Man or Just A Drop Out Genius

In Hip Hop, Media, Social Media on November 19, 2011 at 6:38 pm

Tyler, the Creator is one of those rap artists that you would cross the street to walk on the other side, than casually run towards him to get an autograph. He is known for his dark and offensive lyrics that make you jump and widen your eyes and think ‘what sort of sick and twisted boy are you?’ We listen to his music and before actually thinking about it deeply, we judge him and call him things like the demon of the music industry.

If we listen to Tyler, the Creator on a deeper level, we start to actually realise that he is speaking sense. He isn’t your typical artist, he goes against the normal structure  of the music industry. Most artist talk about drugs, sex and money whereas Tyler, sadly talks about ‘raping  bitches.’ Yes, that is kinda disturbing but lets go deeper than that.

Lets look at Yonkers for example. Tyler, rebelling against the normal structure of the music industry, makes him an outcast. In society, if we are an outcast, we are seen to not be normal but Tyler, in a strange way, embraces it and curses heavily as a way of saying ‘I don’t care.’ In Yonkers, Tyler contradicts himself a lot in his verses. He says one thing and then comes back saying the complete opposite.

EXAMPLE #1: ” I’m a f-ckin’ walkin’ paradox, no I’m not,

Threesomes with a fuckin’ triceratops, Reptar

EXAMPLE #2: ” While Syd is tellin’ me that she’s been gettin’ intimate with men,

Syd, shut the fuck up, Here’s the number to my therapist, he’s f-ckin’ awesome with listenin

When a person contradicts himself, we think they have no clear idea what they are actually saying. In some cases, that is true. Tyler on the other hand, contradicts himself as a point. He says one thing about himself or something in general and then says the complete opposite. The lyrics about Syd and the therapist is a perfect example. He doesn’t care if Syd is getting intimate with men. She should go and see a therapist because he doesn’t give a shit. He ignores Syd’s problem, like he ignores societies expectations of a mainstream rapper. He is definitely not a mainstream rapper. Neither is his group, OFWGKTA.  We have norms in society and his lyrics are simply mad rather than ‘normal.’ We obviously know, nothing will change Tyler’s lyrics but all we can do is just accept it as his personality. A thoughtful person would say, that by looking at the music video above and his music in general, he isn’t making a point. The truth is that there is no point to make, other than every persons personality is different. Even so, every persons personality is unique. And all one can do, is accept it.

I am not saying Tyler, the Creator is perfect. I am just saying that before an artist is labelled, we need to look deeper at their music to really understand their message. Once we do that, then we can make a valid judgement. It is not shocking that many people make unintelligent judgments because a lot of people, lack the drive to discover how deep the ditch can go. Some will say ‘cool, let me listen to more,’ others will say ‘not my thing,’ and his typical fans will say ‘burn shit, fuck school.’

I want to hear your point of views. Comment below on what you think. I have told you my view, now it is time to share yours. And does it take a intelligent person to do such a thing like this?

Post Inspired by my friend Yasmin O. Follow her Tumblr on http://nocturnaldweeb.tumblr.com/

White Louis Boat Shoes And A Hip Hop Journey

In Hip Hop, Media on November 13, 2011 at 2:35 am

When it comes to music, Hip Hop is the one type of music, I can listen to through out the day and not get even a tiny bit bored or fustrated by repetition, rhythm and rhyming. I could hear an album about 4 times in a day with frequent intervals, where I play another artist. Let’s take something old school like KRS One.

The philosophy of the above musical production is just brilliant. I would play this early in the morning. Hip Hop is never too early to play in the day. For me to get to know about these sort of artists, it takes years and my mum constantly saying to me ‘Derrick, rip this CD’ (computer storage  taken and curious eyes widen). Would I rip the CD? Nope, until the following week. Only because at that time I am playing something like this.

Forget the whole, Illuminati conspiracy, I just love listening to a good production and execution of a Jay Z track. Strangely, when I heard this track, I hadn’t listened to Blueprint 3. Call me late with Hip Hop, that wouldn’t be the first time. I heard this song for the first time about a month ago. I must have heard it ages ago but can’t remember.

So Jay Z is finished and I am at the point in my hip hop life, where I need something a little bit rude, but has a awesome production. I was doing a review for a magazine a while back, and in the magazine, Tyler, the Creator popped up. I had no clue who he was or what his group were all about. I listened to his music and came across Earl Sweatshirt. That was the day my addiction to OFWGKTA (Odd Future Wolf Gang Kill Them All) started. Everyday from there was Odd Future day.  Breakfast was Tyler, lunch was Earl Sweatshirt and dinner was Hodgy Beats.

My mum has called me crazy. The lyrics and the name of the song itself, automatically brings about negativity. I couldn’t help listening to them. Must have been a serious addiction that needed hospital treatment. I wonder if OFWGKTA would be as popular as they are if they spoke positively about people and their actions with the same beats. I don’t think they would be that popular. What can I say? They are simply talented and lucky to be popular towards a certain crowd of people. What is next destination on my hip hop journey. I gotta become a more sane individual and listen to what the masses are listening to. It keeps me in tune with what is new and fresh or old and fresh on a dance floor with people that cannot dance.

 

I hope everyone is keeping up with this post. This may be one of the most craziest hip hop journeys you have been on in your life.

I have told you the music I listen to but I haven’t told you about my favourite hip hop track ever. That is very important. Some people may not agree with what I post as my ‘best’ or ‘favourite’ or ‘dope ass’ tune.

In the most simple terms possibly, you are watching a master at work. Okay maybe not me, but I am getting there. I am one strange individual when it comes to music. You must be thinking, you like Masta Killa who talks about water flowing, crashing and never ending riddles but then dwells on Tyler’s crazy lyrics about ‘raping bitches.’ Now let me put on my imaginary white Louie boat shoes and simply say >>> I SIMPLY LOVE HIP HOP!

I HIRE AND FIRE MYSELF

In Uncategorized on August 19, 2011 at 3:54 pm

The title says it all.

I go through life, thinking I want to be my own boss. I don’t want to work for anyone. I want to be my own boss because it gives me freedom. With being your own boss and working for yourself, you set everything yourself. You tell yourself when you want to work and when you want to play. When you want to take a holiday and who you want to employ. My favourite is getting to wear what you like which I feel gives me the opportunity to express myself through my choice of clothes. The downside is being your own boss is the responsibility that comes with it.  No one holds your hand as you go through life. You take charge of yourself.

When you work for someone you have responsibilities like:

  • What time to get into work
  • What time you can have your break
  • When you can leave
  • You have to inform your boss when your not coming into work
  • You have to face consequences from your boss or be sacked
  • Your dress code
The responsibility of being your own boss allows you to suffer from your own mistakes instead of being told of your mistakes. It can be hard to know when you have made a mistake without having a boss but that comes with freedom and responsibility.
Personally, I am a odd worker. I like to work when I like. I like to wake up when I like. If I want to work during the night and chill during the day, I would prefer to do that then have deadlines from someone else. Having a boss and having to go to school at a certain time and having lessons at a specific time teaches you about these things:
  • Time management
  • Deadlines
  • Structure
  • People and how they work
Learning how to be a leader is just as important as learning how to be an employee. Both have their positives and negatives. All you have to do as teenagers or individuals is know where you want to be in life. I would prefer to be a boss and control myself and deal with my own mistakes.
What would you prefer to be? Employee or Boss?